Ice Crystal Rainbow

Through my window an ice crystal rainbow shines high up in a cold Minnesota sky. I would probably miss it if I was out rushing somewhere or if I was out on a lunch hour errand, but I am not, I am not in a hurry to go anywhere. Life has slowed down to enjoyable pace and I am content to look through my window as I drive. I feel free.

The spirit of wonder has come over for a long sleep over.

The last three January’s while not particularly hard existed with a special grit to them. January 2005 was the last I saw of my small blond hair boy. A small shadow in all that I do.

I am waiting to turn into my driveway, the turn signal clicks on and off as I wait. I live on a busy street and it can be a long wait until I find a hole in the traffic. I am smiling that far off smile that my friends all know. I am off somewhere else.

The snowed that fell so gently last night now squeaks and crunches as I pull my car into its spot. I click off the key and sit back thinking about what I have been through to reach this moment. I noticeable breathe in and out for a moment thinking of it and all the people who have come into my life. I am extremely grateful for the moment just before this one. It couldn’t have happened without all those people.

The moment

I am waiting at the bus stop with my small blond hair boy, throwing snowballs at my old Saab to pass the time until the bus comes. The bus arrives and I wave goodbye to him through the window as my little guy disappears down the street. However this time unlike three years ago, I will watch him return.